When You Have the Time

Let me know when you have time,
Let me know when you are free.
Tell me what to do,
For you to want to spend time with me.

My soul screams for attention.
My heart aches for tender love.
Please make me a priority,
stay with me when push comes to shove.

Why don't you want us? Your family.
Why have you thrown us away?
Why aren't we enough for you?
Why aren't we enough to make you want to stay?

I'm someone to be wanted.
I'm someone to be needed.
You don't seem to see that.
For you I'm just someone to be mistreated.

Let me know when you have time,
Let me know when you are free.
Tell me what to do,
For you to want to spend time with me.

Chameleon Mask

I pretend I'm happy
I put my brave face on.
I pretend its okay,
I pretend I belong.

I'm letting go now,
slipping far away.
I wont put the mask on,
not for you today.

I've let this darkness,
eat away at my soul.
I'm breaking through,
I won't pay the toll.

I'm going to start,
to put the pieces back.
I'm going to paint,
turning color from black.

Letting go of the pain,
letting go of the fear.
I'm starting again,
I'm changing gear.

This is myself now,
not a chameleon mask.

I'm sorry you didn't see the beauty held within.

Sensation

Let me play around your body park
touch you
tease you
taste you
please you.

Play with me in the dark
take me
feel me
savor me
steal me.

I want to feel your heat expand
I want to feel your passion.
I need you to take my hand
I need you to let this happen.

Swine

Just fucking die
you nasty swine
eat you poison
choke on the rind.

I hope you burn
and smell your flesh
I hope it boils
and melts the rest.

You take the innocence
and make a stain,
you ruin passion
and cause my pain.

Your a waste of human soul,
unclean and a disgrace.
I desire your demise,
for hope of the human race.

The Tingles

My face become flushed,
a primrose pink.
My body gets warm,
my heart begins to thump.

A simple catch of your eye,
causes my stomach to lurch,
I feel as if I was falling.
my palms sweat.

I pass you a longing stare,
your eyes burn into my body.
I dream of taking in your smell,
that musky dream mist smell.

It was I who claimed your mouth,
I took you in,
I tasted your sweet taste.
My body ached for yours.

Time has left us,
I've grown old,
but the thought of your body,
causes mine to quake.

I keep you in my mind,
To remember your heat.
your touch
your love.

Regrets

Your Brown eyes scream regrets into my soul.
Pouring from every bitter sweet memory.
A glimpse of a smile,
a whisper in my ear.

These vivid memories of happiness.
Always with thoughts of greener grasses,
when you get there its pure ash.

Regret is close to me
pulling me in with my heart strings.
What if's and could have's fill my mind,
Regret embraces my heart.

I still feel the warmth of your arm around me.
A love lost is wretched and cruel.
A mistake loses
your brown eyes forever to scream regrets into my soul.

A Fresh Start

I have decided that this was a fantastic goal in which I ended too quickly. I am going to restart this and I will have 365 poems in the next 365 days. I want to end it by putting them together and hopefully publishing them. Wish me luck!